In Love Again!
Ever since Laura blasted away my first workout of the year, I have been having problems with motivation. I just hadn't been feeling the love anymore! Getting up to work out became a chore and a burden. However, I continued to do my workouts, and I did have fun doing them -- once I forced myself to get started. But I guess I felt like something sacred to me was violated. I made way more of a big deal out of it than it really was, as far as what she said! After all, it was just a drunk girl who was angry at herself lashing out at the nearest person! That is a concern on a whole other level, of course, but it shouldn't effect my workouts at all.
But somehow this weekend the joy came back. I guess it was Saturday -- I did a Turbo Jam I haven't done very often, followed by one of my favorite "The Firm" workouts. Somewhere during that time, I lost track of time and just got INTO it again. Oh, it felt so good! I had thought seriously about taking Sunday off from working out -- it's usually an "active rest day" for me, which just means I do something less intense. But I decided to do a Latin dance workout and it went will too. And then this morning I joined Gilad in "Getting Fit in Jerusalem", which I just think is such a FUN workout! So I think I'm back in the groove. God, I'm so glad.
As for Laura, I've been a little cold with her ever since New Year's. She has really been on her best behavior, even getting up on her own to go to church with us. She has been pleasant most of the time too. I just hope she is beginning to get the concept that there ARE consequences to your actions, and you can't erase them by "acting nice". It hurts me and I really miss the warm relationship we have often enjoyed in the past. I hope she'll start meeting her responsibilities -- she has fines she has to pay and other obligations the court has imposed. So far she has been ignoring them, and other than giving her an occasional reminder, I have left everything up to her. She got herself into this situation and will have to get herself out.
In the meantime, my love for her is undimmed by all this. I know she's hurting, and I hurt with her, though right now I'm not showing that side to her. I know she feels bad for what she has put the family through. I know she loves us. I hope we'll connect again someday -- I think it will happen. She has lots of people praying for her!
I'm glad my exercise apathy appears to have been a momentary thing. I think it's like any great love! Sometimes, when you are in love, your ardor cools and maybe the person even annoys you. And then you fall in love all over again! And somehow the attachment is stronger than ever.
We had the lovliest fluffy snowfall yesterday! Today I'm freezing my butt off, but the roads are clear and the sun is out.
All is well.
But somehow this weekend the joy came back. I guess it was Saturday -- I did a Turbo Jam I haven't done very often, followed by one of my favorite "The Firm" workouts. Somewhere during that time, I lost track of time and just got INTO it again. Oh, it felt so good! I had thought seriously about taking Sunday off from working out -- it's usually an "active rest day" for me, which just means I do something less intense. But I decided to do a Latin dance workout and it went will too. And then this morning I joined Gilad in "Getting Fit in Jerusalem", which I just think is such a FUN workout! So I think I'm back in the groove. God, I'm so glad.
As for Laura, I've been a little cold with her ever since New Year's. She has really been on her best behavior, even getting up on her own to go to church with us. She has been pleasant most of the time too. I just hope she is beginning to get the concept that there ARE consequences to your actions, and you can't erase them by "acting nice". It hurts me and I really miss the warm relationship we have often enjoyed in the past. I hope she'll start meeting her responsibilities -- she has fines she has to pay and other obligations the court has imposed. So far she has been ignoring them, and other than giving her an occasional reminder, I have left everything up to her. She got herself into this situation and will have to get herself out.
In the meantime, my love for her is undimmed by all this. I know she's hurting, and I hurt with her, though right now I'm not showing that side to her. I know she feels bad for what she has put the family through. I know she loves us. I hope we'll connect again someday -- I think it will happen. She has lots of people praying for her!
I'm glad my exercise apathy appears to have been a momentary thing. I think it's like any great love! Sometimes, when you are in love, your ardor cools and maybe the person even annoys you. And then you fall in love all over again! And somehow the attachment is stronger than ever.
We had the lovliest fluffy snowfall yesterday! Today I'm freezing my butt off, but the roads are clear and the sun is out.
All is well.
posted by Judy W. @ 9:59 AM
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